| geez, time for a long-overdue xanga entry. we're only about a month into the summer and already most of us have our summer packed with camps, internships, college things and what not. its all exciting but at the same time terrifying. i mean, this is the summer that will determine where we will spend the next 4+ years of our lives and possibly the rest of it as well. theres tests to take, essays to write, applications to fill out, colleges to get into, and then majors to pick. and even then, nothing is final. anything could happen. its so weird for me to think that that time is now. i remember being in elementary school and thinking of the almighty high school students. i used to think, wow, that's so far away. i wonder what it's like to be them... and now thats us. geez. i've been doing a lot of thinking lately. a lot of planning. but i still feel like i've gotten nothing done. my internship will be over in a couple weeks, and honestly, im sort of relieved. maybe if it didnt take 40mins-1hr to drive there, it wouldnt be so bad. but i guess ive decided that well, im just not into airplanes. im sitting there at a desk, revising old engineering mylar drawings and im just thinking to myself, geez, i want to design roller coasters, not this. after all these years, it's still my dream to be a disney imagineer. despite the fact that i can't draw more than a stick figure or a hideous panda, i really do love the arts. i love dance. i love performing. i've always loved to watch ballets and shows and have developed a great appreciation for the dedication and detail that i will never fully understand. theres a huge part of me that wants to be a part of that, a part of me that wants to create that. that's why i wanted to be an engineer. thats why i wanted to make it all happen. maybe being a disney imagineer is too idealistic, maybe it really wont change the lives or affect the world in the way that a normal electrical engineer would, but its what i want. its what ive wanted since 8th grade. and i think thats what im going to work towards. part of what is going to get me there has a lot to do with what school i go to. sure, everyone wants to go to some big name school so they can say to everyone, hey, i got into harvard and im going in the fall. for some people, thats right for them. but for a lot of people, it probably isnt. but for some reason, that seems to be the "cool" thing to do. maybe because im not top of my class (or anywhere near there in that case) i dont really feel that pressure. im sure that if i said i wanted to go to some uc school, in their minds, people will look down on me. whether or not they realize it. but you know what, i dont care. personally, i think that maybe i will go for the uc schools. maybe the big schools for graduate school. that doesnt seem like such a bad plan to me, and its definitely not going to be "easy" as im sure a lot of troy kids think. ucberkeley still has one of the top engineering schools, uci has one of the top ranked computer science schools. these schools are still great schools, but for some reason, just arent good enough for a lot of people. im still considering schools like caltech, mit, stanford. i mean, theres not reason to throw them out if i have a chance. but i was looking at the caltech application, and holy cow. i was scared to death. i looked at the website. 215 freshmen accepted every year. twohundredandfifteen. hooly cow. what are the chances that i will be one of the twohundredandfifteen? i havent even taken any honors science classes at all. and caltech doesnt want you to just list your extracurriculars. they want you to list math and science extracurriculars. they actually have a seperate little box for amc, aime. the frickin application intimidates me. what would happen if i actually went to the school? i am taking a tour of the campus. i might cross that off the list of schools to apply to. but geez. this whole college thing is not as easy as i thought it was going to be. and not that i ever thought it was going to be easy... what schools are you guys considering applying to? im excited to see how everyone does and where everyone decides in the end to go=) this summer is going to be incredible. not incredible in the normal sense. incredible as in unlike any other. im doing more stuff this summer, more... real stuff than i ever have before. if my proposal is approved, im going to be writing a booklet on eating disorders, an issue that for some reason, ive always had a thing for, im going to be designing a robot to climb up a whole frikkin coconut tree, im going to georgia to clog in a national competition, im going to have fun, and im going to decide my future. i wish everyone the best of luck. |
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. but anyways. schedule changed a bit for next semester: